OK so today I learned a new concept: BTD, Bal Tshuvah Disease, boy am I a victim of that disease!!!!
I had this long conversation with another victim today, it started off talking about things she couldn't talk to her parents about, and then we figured it also had to do with BTD,
So this is how it goes, my parents are BT's which in itself is an amazing thing, but, & here comes the big but, they each have their own lives, families and secrets they left behind… now if they , and I'm talking about most BT's, would gradually become frum /religious and not avoid their past, for example: not going to visit non religious family, or coloring with a marker on not tznies/modest old photographs (this was b4 Photoshop age) or what me and my friend today called the worst symptom of BTD: the SECRETS oh God, those dam secrets !!!
I had this long conversation with another victim today, it started off talking about things she couldn't talk to her parents about, and then we figured it also had to do with BTD,
So this is how it goes, my parents are BT's which in itself is an amazing thing, but, & here comes the big but, they each have their own lives, families and secrets they left behind… now if they , and I'm talking about most BT's, would gradually become frum /religious and not avoid their past, for example: not going to visit non religious family, or coloring with a marker on not tznies/modest old photographs (this was b4 Photoshop age) or what me and my friend today called the worst symptom of BTD: the SECRETS oh God, those dam secrets !!!
There is one thing that has to be clear to BT's who want to be cured from their disease, the fact that you simply can't erase your past, it's a fact!!!! And the more you try to cover it, forget it, erase it, the more you get deeper into it and cause the close people around you to suffer from emotional instability…
Every human being needs to know where he comes from, the family history etc. no matter how unaccepted the facts are, it is much harder to deal with the big question marks.
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Another symptom of BTD is the over protection they have for their children's Judaism/religion, they can't see their children doing anything they used to do when they weren't religious, even if it's nothing wrong, like shaving your legs, putting on makeup, listening to shlock rock (I used to listen to rock when my parents weren’t home) etc. from my own experience and from what I hear from others, the more parents didn't let their children do things obsessively, that's exactly what the kids are doing today, to help you understand, there was a congregation of BT's who all used to shave the boy's heads very very short & leave very very long & thick peot/peyes, many of those children who are grown now, grew their hair very long…
Every human being needs to know where he comes from, the family history etc. no matter how unaccepted the facts are, it is much harder to deal with the big question marks.
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Another symptom of BTD is the over protection they have for their children's Judaism/religion, they can't see their children doing anything they used to do when they weren't religious, even if it's nothing wrong, like shaving your legs, putting on makeup, listening to shlock rock (I used to listen to rock when my parents weren’t home) etc. from my own experience and from what I hear from others, the more parents didn't let their children do things obsessively, that's exactly what the kids are doing today, to help you understand, there was a congregation of BT's who all used to shave the boy's heads very very short & leave very very long & thick peot/peyes, many of those children who are grown now, grew their hair very long…
